Thursday, December 04, 2008

The Baby

is not a baby anymore.

For those who haven't followed my blog long, here's a quick history lesson.

We had two kids. The Boy and The Girl.
We were done. DONE. No more kids.
And then I was pregnant again.
And that baby died suddenly in the second trimester.
And then this happened 2 more times. A total of 3 pregnancy losses in the second trimester.
Sheer devastation, but we were so done having children.

And then God decided differently. And despite doing all I could to avoid it, I was pregnant again.

I was jaded, knowing in my heart that this pregnancy too would end too soon. I didn't let myself become too attached to the little child inside of me because I couldn't possibly handle another crushing blow.

And then two years ago on this day at 6am, I told The Man that it was time to go to the hospital. The delivery was fairly quick at 4 hours, and quite easy with no pain meds. And still in the back of my mind, I was stubborn and refused to let my guard down.

Until the doctor told me that it was a healthy breathing little boy. And then the wall broke and I cried for hours. I've never cried like that before.


Despite me thinking I know it all, God really is in control. He knew what He was doing all along. Of course I still don't have answers for those three lost babies, but He knew that this child needed to come into our lives at this perfect moment in time.


And today The Baby is 2 years old. "Doo" he says.
He'll have cake, presents, and "boons".
He is the reason for my need for love of caffeine.
He is the reason we had to chose to upgrade to a king size bed. He still sleeps with us.
He is the reason my house looks the way it does. (that's what I tell myself, anyway.)
He is the reason I laugh at least 14 times a day and cry at least 3 times a week.
He is the reason for the gray hairs that have begun popping up in my hair.
He is such a blessing to our family.
I'm so glad we accidentally had another baby.
God really does know what He's doing.

36 comments:

Blessed with Blue said...

Happy Birthday little man!!!!!!!!!!!!

Caitlin said...

He is such a cutie! So glad God blessed you with him.

Bridget said...

oh he is such a beautiful little soul. his eyes say it all.

happy birthday sweet boy.

how old are your other kids?

Shorty said...

Thanks for sharing that beautiful story!

angie and the boys said...

What a sweet blog post today. It spoke to me. Yes, God does know what is best for us. Thanks for the tears this morning:)

Susan S. said...

Happy birthday to your precious little boy! You are so right...God always has plans for us and sometimes we don't understand them but generally they work out REALLY well! Just like your sweet boy! Ya'll have a blessed day!

Sun2Create said...

Oh, what a sweet post! Thanks for sharing that and I hope it is a wonderful birthday!

Princess Caitlin said...

Happy Birthday to the Baby!

God is so awesome.

My wish is to be a mommy of cute little boys one day. You inspire me! Yay for you. :)

Oh2122 said...

He's wonderful!

Happy Birthday Little Man!

Delightful Divas In Business said...

What a touching, sweet, and heartwarming story. Happy Birthday to your precious little boy...

Love and hugs,
from the girls at DDIB!

Liz said...

This post made me tear up.

marissa said...

oh my gosh what a road you have been down. What happy ending to the story and such a cutie too. Happy birthday

Brandon said...

You truly are blessed Becky! He's so handsome, Happy Birthday Big guy!

Melissa

memoriesforlifescrapbooks said...

I'm glad your story had such a happy ending :) You put a smile on my face...thanks!

Rebekah said...

Beki, I had no idea you went through that. I got tears in my eyes when I read about your own tears - I can only imagine what that was like for you. What a busy blessing he sounds like, too :)

Graceful Moments said...

So sorry you had to go through such devastating sorrow before you were so beautifully blessed with this child! He is so adorable. You can just see the mischief in his sweet eyes...
So, are you changing his name to the Boy 2 or will he still be the Baby? Guess we'll have to stay tuned to find out!

The Perfect Trio said...

oh girl...i thought you were about to tell us you are pregnant!!! :o)

Happy Birthday Baby!

What will his new name be????

I got the chain today BTW! Thank you bunches!!!!

Melissa

tscrapper said...

Happy Birthday little guy! What a blessing!

Blissful Nikki said...

God surly is on the Throne, huh? I am so glad that you got blessed again because he is sooo cute! I have loved watching your kids all grow up! I feel like I really know all of you!! :)

And thank you SOOO much for your sweet comment earlier! You know I will take you up on that necklace when I reach my goal weight! I am not a girl to refuse free jewelry! Especially not your beautiful baubles! :)
Love ya!!

Carol said...

Beki...What a beautiful blessing! Happy Birthday to you both!! xoxox

Rosebud Collection said...

What a beautiful story..and what a Fingerprint..I am always amazed with stories like these..this is what gives us hope and keeps us believing..I tell you, he is the cutest little guy..

Christopher And Tia said...

This made me cry like a baby. In a good way I think though. Maybe its the hormones.

I love your blog.

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday (a bit late) to The Baby. Your stories of his antics crack me up. For your sake I hope he mellows out as he gets older but if not at least it will keep your blog readers amused.

The Downtown Boutique said...

Oh, Beki! Your heart must've broken going through that! What a blessing to have this little guy. When he does the things he does that frustrate you and make you cry, remember that God has a very special plan for him, because he lived!

God bless and Merry Christms!
Angie

Anonymous said...

What a happy day! Congratulations to you, and Happy Birthday to the Baby!

S.

YaYa's Funhouse said...

Happy Birthday to The Baby!!! He is so special in God's eyes. I absolutely love the stories you share with us. God definitely has a plan for his life.

Happy Birthday!!

Jamie said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the lil' man!

I'm sorry to hear of your losses but so glad God blessed you with such a cutie. Thanks for sharing your story. You are a stong woman!

Beth said...

What a beautiful post about your baby boy! I had no idea and I'm so sorry for your losses but so happy that you have such a sweet child. God does know best but it's so hard to understand sometimes, isn't it? Blessings to you all!

Paper Girl Productions said...

What a beautiful post! You are very blessed with your family.

Leah said...

Amazingly beautiful story. I came across your blog through Amelia's Blog...glad I did...your story of your little guy is touching and just another reminder of God's GRACIOUS love! What an amazing little guy and loving mother he is lucky to have!

Sew Gracious said...

As I've always said, "It's a good thing he's cute". ;-) I had no idea what a huge blessing he is to your family too.

Happy Birthday to your little guy! What a wonderful reminder of God's constant grace & love.

Hugs!

Sarah @ ThriftyDecorChick said...

So awful to hear that -- my heart broke for you. But then it swelled...my boy turns two on the 8th! (In three minutes!) How wonderful for you, all that sadness and this little angel. Happy birthday to him! (late!)

Randi said...

Wow! An amazing story.....
Happy Birthday!

Melissa @ The Inspired Room said...

What a precious little guy you have. How heartbreaking to have to go through all the devastation, I am so sorry! But what a joyous outcome you have to celebrate now!

Blessings to you all & Happy Birthday!

Melissa

Cheryl said...

What a wonderful post. I just came across your blog - it's great! Happy Birthday to your son and God Bless you and your family.

fly tie said...

beautiful. :-)

and i love the "boon" picture.