Monday, December 07, 2009

Does it even matter?

Last week, I spent a fair amount of time feeling sorry for myself.
And stressed out.
Will I ever get well? Will I ever get these orders out on time?
And I kept thinking about a phrase from a restaurant I used to wait tables in.
When the servers would get "in the weeds", crazy stressed, taking on more than they could handle, the managers would tell them, "It's just pizza and beer. That's it.
It just beer and pizza! In the grand scheme of things, none of this is that important."


And that led me to thinking, "it's just jewelry. That's it. Just jewelry."
I recognize that what I do is not rocket science.
(One of my favorite jokes is - "It doesn't take a rocket surgeon to figure that out!" Haha!)
I'm blessed to be able to work from home and create what I love, but it's just jewelry.
Does it really even matter?



And then I got an email that stopped me cold in my tracks.

"Beki,

I just wanted to thank you for the Blessed necklace I purchased from you in July. Every night my two year old would hold it as she fell asleep. I rarely took it off because she enjoyed tugging on it so much. She suffered from a neurological disease and didn't have the best control of her movements but the silver disk was the perfect size for her two year old palm and she could hold it quite well. On August 28 she went to Heaven (the day after her little sister was born, the reasons for God's timing are only His to know I suppose). Anyway, having that necklace to hold in my hand, something she held is so amazingly precious to me. Especially now as her little sister begins to tug on it it's a reminder of how it felt before. I cannot thank you enough for this beautiful and STURDY design. I truly am blessed and these days I need the reminder around my neck.

I just wanted to take a moment to let you know that this piece is so special to me and to thank you."


Oh. My. Gosh.



It does matter! All of it!
Every little thing you do or don't do. It does matter!
Does it matter if I ignore my kids for 5 more minutes to check email?

Does it matter that I don't give $10 to that popular charity that everyone seems to be blogging about this year?

Does it matter that I just make a simple craft from my home and sell it to a few people out there on the internet?

Does it matter if I blog or don't blog? Or if thousands of people read it one day, and only hundreds the next?

Yes, it all matters. Every decision matters.
Even if you don't see it. Even if you don't know it right away.
Even if you never know it.

It matters.
You matter!
God put you at this exact spot for this exact moment in time.

Because you matter.



Bless you as you go through this week.
May you have a peace and a joy and a sense of place in this life.

In case no one told you recently, you matter.

60 comments:

The Double Dipped Life said...

What a wonderful post. It's hard to see how we matter sometime, and then the little reminders come along. Thank you for a lovely thought for the day.

Brynwood Needleworks said...

Dear Beki:
I'm so glad I added you blog to my favorites list on my sidebar. I wouldn't have wanted to miss this post for anything!
Blessings,
Donna

Anonymous said...

Beki...I am in tears as I write this! It is so very true that all the little things we do every day impact someone that we or may not ever know about. Thank you so much for sharing this amazing story and God bless that sweet mom and her family!

merium said...

Thank-you Beki! Great post~terrific reminder!

Vintage Confections said...

Thank you for sharing this. I have had a pretty rough time for the last two years and it is sometimes good to be reminded how much worse things can be.

Thank you.

Jody said...

What an amazing story. Its so beautiful that I have tears in my eyes. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Amy, a redeemed sheep said...

Thank you, Beki...

Polka Dot Moon said...

Tears are rolling down my cheeks and I have a lump in my throat reading your post & email.
Thanks for the reminder! Wonderful post!!

Sara said...

I have goosebumps...EVERYWHERE.
Thank you for this...
I needed it as I face a rainy week with 24 Kindergarteners, who will be INSIDE my classroom ALL DAY LONG.
Complaining about THAT seems ridiculous now.

Angel said...

Thank you for sharing that beautiful e-mails. With tears streaming, you gave the gift of allowing me to pray for that mother.

Cristy said...

Oh wow. You know I don't cry easily, Beki. But this post made me tear up.

God bless your customer, her new baby and her sweet angel baby. I'm so glad you made that necklace for her and she has something to hold on to and treasure forever.

Pink Lemonade Bags said...

Thank you for this sweet post!

Amy Priddy :||: Priddy Creations said...

Thanks for sharing! Sometimes it is hard to push through the rough spots but knowing that it does matter makes it worthwhile.

jusshardesigns said...

Wow - it's definitely more important than beer and pizza!

How awesome is it that she has that necklace as a constant reminder of her baby. And I can only imagine how blessed YOU feel to know you provided that opportunity for her.

Wendy said...

Okay, stop making me cry first thing in the morning! A little warning would be nice!

Dotty Jane said...

So true! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and that beautiful email message. We never know what our words and actions may mean to someone else.
God bless,
Vicki

rentz said...

Beautiful post, Beki. It made me cry. But that's not a bad thing! I'm studying Beth Moore's Esther and just today I studied Esther 4:14. The last part of that verse is a very well-known part of the Bible. "For such a time as this".
God always places us right where He wants us. And, if we allow Him, He can work wonderful things through us. Even the "little" things that don't seem to matter.

sparkled*life said...

You do matter! Take time out to de-stress this Holiday season! You are a blessing to all of us bloggers out here just keep on keeping on you are amazing!

Shorty said...

What a poignant thing to say, Beki. Especially as I've been wallowing in self-pity each morning when I get to work. Wishing I were somewhere else. Wishing I was doing something from home. Realizing that I'm the bread-winner and we can't afford for me to be home right now. Realizing that even tho I may not like carrying this load it is beneficial to more than just me... to my son and my husband, our home and our dogs, and my mom who would try to rescue me if I couldn't make it on my own.

How is it so easy to get caught up in self-pity? I seem to be able to allow it to consume me way too often. Thank you for the reminder that what we do is important, every hour of every day, and to every person.

This morning I sent a message to my husband letting him know I spent 7.5 hrs per week commuting to work, and I sent this looking for a bit of commiseration, I guess. His response? "You need to listen to audio books or learn a second language!" I have to laugh, because he is sooo right!

Have a great day, my friend. And thank you for all that you do!

kraftykash said...

Wow! What a great blog entry today. Thanks for this. Its a great reminder.

Rachel said...

Rarely do posts bring me to joyful tears, but yours did today. Exactly what I needed to hear - I matter, you matter, our decisions matter. I feel abundantly blessed by your sharing. Thank you! Also, it's pretty perfect that I chose to wear one of your necklaces today. Mine says, "Je T'aime." Everytime I think about it I am reminded that God loves me and chose to remind me of his love in everyday blessings...like your post. :)

Love the Decor! said...

Thank you for a heartfelt post!!
That poor mommy!! My heart goes out to her. A great reminder of how we touch lives every day and make an impact sometimes without ever realizing it. You matter too my friend!!

Pfeiffer Photos said...

We are the apple of His eye--thanks, Beki, for reminding us. :)

kpmattingly said...

Thank you for the reminder. I often ask myself if any of it matters too. And deep down I know that it does, I just don't always remember it.

CINDER said...

Thank you for sharing-It is so neat how things work... Everything we do impacts someone's life somehow!

Princess of Everything (and then some) said...

This just blew me away. The things that we think are so little an yet, God just uses them.

I am so thankful that you were able to create that for her.

I am thankful that she wrote to you to tell you the story. Such encouragement.

Carissa(GoodnCrazy) said...

gosh I love your pictures in this post. Thanks for a little reflection there...

We all know we matter, but sheesh why is we need to be reminded??

Robyn said...

Beki, your post could not have come at a more appropriate time for me! I am DROWNING in BEHINDNESS! TRULY...I have so much to do, so many clients to get their photos done that I'm frantic. On top of that, I'm having spinal pain issues that are NOT going away. The only reason I even had a moment to check your blog is because I'm burning a disc and bulk processing some photos so I can't do anything else but browse. THEN the first thing I go to is your blog and BAM! It was just what I needed. THANK YOU!

Laura said...

does it matter that I am ignoring my child to sit at the computer?
it does...because I read THIS
thanks
I miss you
xo

Marc, Sarah, and Luke said...

Thanks Beki for that post!!! That was wonderful to read! That e-mail you received breaks my heart -- but in a neat way.

John and Elisa Seaba said...

WOW, what a touching story!! 2 Dec. birthday?! Yowzers, i thought 2 Jan ones were tough but Dec would be even tougher! AND... I got my necklace today!!! Thank you SO SO much, I LOVE it!!

SugarberrySensations said...

Dear Beki,

That is one of the most beautiful posts I have read in a long, long time! Yes, it ALL matters, doesn't it?! YOU matter!!! =)

Thank you for sharing that most precious email! And your GORGEOUS pictures (as always)!

♥Lori♥

Shealynn Benner said...

Speechless. Great post!!!

elizabeth said...

Not only is this a beautiful post, it's very powerful as well. Thank you for doing these posts - THEY MATTER to us.

paperhill said...

wow, what a beautiful story. thanks for such a thoughtful post. hope you are well! xo susan

The Perfect Trio said...

OK. Now you've made me cry!

One day you and I will meet and discover that we are so much alike. We feel so deeply about such things that many do not feel emotion for at all.

I am so please to call you FRIEND!

Hugs!
Melissa

Ruth said...

oh beki, you do make my heart smile!
and you MATTER.
a lot :)

Country Dreaming said...

I know that everyone forgets this.
That we do matter. Sometimes I wonder what my blog provides when I don't have as may readers on a particular post or as many followers as I'd like. I have to remind myself that I'm only going on 5 mos in this blogging stuff.
Thanks for the reminder!


Melinda

The Queen Of Re said...

Such a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Christina said...

What a treasure for you...what a wonderful thing that you were able to give her. I have a necklace that I wear every day (sorry that it's not one of yours! Maybe sometime...) and my two year old thinks of it as a security blanket. She grabs it first thing whenever I pick her up from anywhere, and when she wakes in the middle of the night. She twists and twirls it, like it's hair! She has always held onto it from the time she was tiny, less than a week old even. Sometimes it drives me nuts, since it's short and she pushes her little fist into my throat, right in that space that makes you want to gag. Reading this, though, makes me appreciate all the more the connection. I'm so sorry for that mommy. Who can understand these things...I'll pray for her as she continues to take care of a little one.

kl said...

just another reason why i am so grateful to have found your blog a few weeks ago. it's so true, everyone matters and effects the world in such different & important ways.
have a wonderful week. :)
xo

Anonymous said...

Beautiful!

jacjewelry said...

Amazing post. Thank you for sharing!

Shuggamom said...

Beki,

First, thank you for sharing a little bit of our life with us,you have made me and my daughter LAUGH so often, love your precious family!! Keep more fun and laughter coming!!
Secondly, OMG!! My heart is so heavy for that precious mother,thank you for sharing, I will be praying for her.
Just keep doing what you are doing, so many people are blessed by your blog!!

Wishing you and your family a very Merry CHRISTmas and a Blessed New Year!!
So jealous yall get to go to Branson, we so love that place!!

Love,
Stacey
East Texas

Tamara Jansen said...

Isn't it amazing how everything we do can have an indelible impact that we never could have imagined? Hope you are starting to catch up with all the things you're working on :)

shan said...

I've read through all the comments and I have to say, now I'm touched that my email meant so much:)

What a beautiful post!

It felt good to say thank you, and I can see why God pushed me to do it.

ps- I'm wearing my necklace now, as I do daily:)

Farmgirl Paints said...

That was such a special letter. Doesn't it just thrill your heart when someone takes the time to tell you that you matter! BTW I love my necklace too and wear it all of the time!!!

Sew Gracious said...

Whew! Thanks for the perspective in this crazy, busy time.

Martha said...

What a beautiful post...and absolutely it DOES matter just as you said...every decision we make...how wonderful for that mother to have that precious memory of her beloved child...those wonderful stories are always worth sharing too! Thank you!

Julie said...

I think I would of balled if I received that! Amazing. All things happen for a reason.

gina said...

I'm crying now- but it's good to be reminded of how truly blessed we are!

Shalyce said...

I'm a new follower, but just wanted to tell you that this is such a sweet post and a wonderful reminder to all of us.

Katey said...

what a neat message, thank you for sharing

parallel-botany said...

Wow, Beki. This a wonderful reminder to have when you feel that life is getting away from you.

Beth said...

Wow! That is an incredible post. Thanks so much for sharing that e-mail and your thoughts.

Jessica said...

I just adore you!!!
Thank you for always putting everything in perspective. I hope you are feeling better. Thanks for sending your well wishes my way...love ya!

Trish said...

Sunday mornings are my "blog hopping" time while everyone else sleeps. I have read quite a few this morning, but yours stopped me in my tracks. I have goosebumps. Thank you for this post. I will be going about my day much differently today. Thank you.

Whimsical Creations said...

What an amazing post! hugs!

Judy said...

Oh yes it does matter!!! What you do is definitely more than just jewelry! I ordered a necklace from you that said "Olivia." Olivia was just 2 when she passed away this past spring and I sent that necklace to her mommy. Olivia's mommy wears it all the time and it is a bittersweet reminder to all of us who see it what a precious gift we all had for those 2 years.

~love said...

beautiful. and so very true....how easily we forget.