I'm breaking all the bloggy rules today.
2 posts in one day, just a short time apart.
I have no picture for this post.
I really have nothing to say. I just need to ramble.
This is not upbeat and fluffy and happy and helpful and everything I think a blog post should be. It's the opposite.
I'm nervous about Cora's memorial today. There are so many emotions.
Such a beautiful child, a beautiful life, a beautiful family.
I'm so moved and inspired by the way this story has touched lives around the globe.
But at this cost? That crushes me.
People should never have to feel this amount of pain.
I swing back and forth from tears for The Macs, to smiling when I see their gorgeous pictures together. I smile when I read their blog and see their faith throughout this ordeal. If it had been me in that situation, would I have been able to compose posts like that daily? No way. It just blows me away that they could be so eloquent and inspiring in such a difficult time.
I want to take my camera to the service this afternoon to get shots of the parking lot.
I know it will be crazy crowded. I just want to document that love that our community is surrounding them with.
But is it tacky of me?
Who takes a camera to a funeral?
My dad called late last night and said he's nearby on business and wants to get together for dinner tonight. (He lives in another state.) So I'm excited about that. I love seeing him and I could use the distraction.
My thoughts and emotions are just bouncing all around today.
I'm nervous, sad, happy, anxious, scared all at the same time.
And if I'm having all these emotions as an outsider, I can't begin to imagine what The Macs are going through.
Please pray for them today and in the days ahead. This must be the darkest hour of their lives and they need strength and love.
Update: Well, it was about what I thought it would be - beautiful and heartbreaking.
Nearly all the women in the family wore hot pink which was so perfect!
I had the hardest time with the song "Blessed be the name of the Lord" and the line "you give and take away, you give and take away. But our hearts will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name."
There were lots of people there and lots of beautiful pictures. It reminded me of the power of photography. To capture a moment in time can be priceless.
The pastor talked a lot about
blogging!
He was amazed by the way this story has connected people around the globe, and read quite a few of the comments left on The Macs blog.
God has used this sweet baby girl Cora in ways no one ever could have imagined.
She's touched more people in 3-4 weeks than most of us have in a lifetime.
I did take my camera and snapped a few pictures.
I only got one "look" that I know of, and that could've just been my perception.
I didn't put it to my eye a single time, just held it in front of me and snapped and hoped that some of them would come out.
Thank you all for the prayers for this family today. I know they could feel it!