Saturday, May 01, 2010

Ten.

My baby girl.
My little princess.



We prayed so hard for a baby.




A few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, I was driving home from work and it all hit me.
I put my hand on my (very flat) tummy and said, "I love you baby."
And then bawled.
(A bit hormonal... Ha!)




We didn't find out the sex until she was born.
I remember the doctor saying, "It's a girl!" and I said, "Are you sure?!"
I was convinced I was having a boy.
He just laughed and said, "Yeah, I've seen quite a few of these things and this one's definitely a girl."


She's the one I "practiced" my parenting on.
And she didn't do anything like the textbooks said she would.
I even took her to the doctor at one point and said, "What is wrong with this kid? She's not normal!"
He told me she's what's called a high needs baby, which basically just means they cry all the time. All.The.Time.
Fab.
We learned together how to do this whole family thing.



She was a super challenging baby and I spent many days in tears.
I dreaded the "terrible twos." I didn't see how it could get any worse, honestly.
But as she hit 2, then 3, then on up, she just got better and better.
Easier and easier.

She's so smart. So kind. So strong.
We've always said that she'll be the first female president.
But she's always said she'll be the second, because she's sure we'll have one before then.


And this weekend she turns 10.
I'm not even sure how that happened. I don't know when we phased out the pigtails and bows.

She's such a great friend.
And even though I see her every day, as I looked at these pictures teared up.
I wondered what's behind those eyes.
What's she dreaming? What are her hopes?


All I know is I love her so much it hurts and I'm incredibly blessed.

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32 comments:

Cole said...

this made me tear up! I really hope I have a girl someday.

Erica said...

what a sweet sweet post! happy birthday! she is beautiful! i love this age in girls... the beginning of the awkward junior high years but they are such sponges too. i love these photos- and i LOVE her chipped blue nail polish in the photo of her holding out the sunfuzzies (dandelions) lol

Sara said...

(hormones? I started crying when I read "we prayed so hard for a baby"
10 is so BIG!
I kept scrolling, and thinking,
"this one is my favorite"...
and then the next one popped up...
"no, THIS one..."

Just like your baby girl, they are beautiful pictures :)

(but my REAL favorites are the black and the white and the first one of her in the grass. I think. For now...)

Julie Harward said...

She is a beauty! Happy Birthday to her..and you mom...she will be 20 before you can blink believe me! Come say hi :D

Casey said...

What a sweet post! I feel the exact same way about my oldest daughter who will be 11 next Friday. AHHHHH... it just hit me! Now I am tearing up again!

Happy Birthday!

Whimsical Creations said...

Happy birthday to her!! She is beautiful. Those pictures made me tear up, too. They get so big so fast. My oldest son will be 9 in a couple months...he too was a high needs baby. Have a wonderful weekend!

kraftykash said...

She is beautiful! My daughter will be 11 in August. I feel the same way about her. We were blessed with some good girls. :) Come check out my giveawy when you get a minute :)

Debra from Bungalow said...

What a beautiful tribute to your daughter. I can hardly keep from crying....they do grow up so fast. Cherish her.

Heather at All A Flutter said...

this is a great post! what a wonderful ode to your baby. happy birthday, birthday girl!!

Wendy said...

Happy Birthday, big girl! You know, it's not too early to start pestering mom and dad for a car. ;o)

Princess Caitlin said...

aaw! Happy Birthday, Camryn!

Tom and Mira Ehrlich said...

She sure turned out to be such a beautiful and happy girl. I can't believe that she is 10. She still seems like that shy 3rd grader I knew.

Have a fun weekend!!!!

Mira

Angela said...

Happy Birthday Beautiful One!
My son, my 1st born, is also 10 and your story greatly resembles mine with him...high needs baby turned easy breezy "dude" : )
Love the photos...lovely!

Graceful Moments said...

Your girl is absolutely beautiful. These photos are great. I love the one in black and white, she is simply gorgeous. Know you are a proud mom. Happy Birthday to your lovely young lady.

Colleen said...

Happy birthday! She was such a fun kid when I lived by you.

Sew Gracious said...

She is beautiful! What a wonderful blessing to your family! Isn't it great to be a Mom?

Country Dreaming said...

What beautiful daughter you have. Congratulations and Happy Birthday to her!

Melinda

Love the Decor! said...

Happy birthday to your sweet beautiful daughter!
Beki If you are not making me laugh you are making me cry : )
They grow up so quickly so I am glad you are cherishing her! I can tell she knows she is loved she has a secure confidence about her
Before you know it she will be grown and giving you a sweet grandbaby!! ( which is a bit of heaven by the way)
Hope your weekend is all that you hope for.

Lisa said...

Oh Beki! This is so sweet! You have to make sure she looks at this when she is grown. Then she will understand how much you love her!
Hugs, Lisa

Marlene W. said...

What sweet, beautiful photos! What a great post. Happy birthday to your baby girl :)

Beth said...

Beautiful photos! I'm not a parent, but I've got a younger sister who is ten years my junior, and since my parents divorced not long after she was born, I always felt kind of like a junior parent to her. Anyway, reading this brought tears to my eyes since I know what you mean. It's thrilling and scary to see how quickly things change and how those tiny little babies are suddenly PEOPLE - and sometimes, luckily, really amazing people.

Christina said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet girl! The pics are so lovely. The B&W by the barn-amazing. My daughter-9-keeps telling me that soon she'll be in double digits. I'm like,"No...you are not allowed." But, it's true. She must grow up. Sigh.
I love that you said,"Are you sure?" and the said she'll be the second female president. Love it.

The Little Red Shop said...

Ahhh...God bless you and your little sweetie! I hope she has a beautiful birthday. 10 was such a great age!

: )

Julie M.

Sunny Sue said...

What a beauty you have! Can't decide which pic I like best. I think it may be the last one. Might change my mind if I look back tomorrow...

Boy, did this hit home with me! I was never told that my 2nd was a high needs baby. She was certainly colicky (and still is!). But, I love her dearly. She is a very smart girl with a wonderful heart... just not always with her mother. :-) I look forward to the day when we will be great friends. Going through the teen thing now but I know it will come.

Continue to enjoy this beauty of yours. As cliche' as this is - it is true... She will be gone before you know it. Off to new discoveries to call home about.

crush. blog said...

Ok, now I'M crying. Happy double digits to your very beautiful young lady!!


And these photos? That's it. I'm saving all of my dollars and flying you out to MA to do my girls. I'll let you see Boston while your here, k?

Polka Dot Moon said...

Hope your daughter had a beautiful day! Happy Birthday to her :)

Martha said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet and beautiful girl!!! Those are great pics of her you took:)

Michelle said...

She is beautiful! Happy Birthday sweetie.

Ruth said...

oh she is beautiful. happy birthday to the lovely girl!

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Robin in Benton said...

This is just the way that I feel about my baby girl - my youngest that will turn 14 in June - and start high school next fall. Where have the years gone....

TDM Wendy said...

Sweet face. Lovely pics. She's not crying now so that's good.