Monday, August 13, 2012

I won Gold.

If inappropriately flipping out on your kids and bursting into tears was an Olympic sport, then today I took the Gold medal.

I'm not proud of it.

Ironically, it was after I'd written an article on parenting.

I can't blame stress. Things are fairly calm right now in our world.
I can't blame hormones. It's just not the right time.
I can't blame anything. I simply lost my cool. That's all.

What does it mean?
It means that I don't have it all together. Never will.
And even those who write parenting books, articles, and blogs, don't always have it all together either.

We make mistakes.
And all we can do is ask for God's grace one more time.

Just about the time I start thinking I've got this parenting thing figured out, my kids turn on me.
They change personalities, likes, dislikes, and attitudes.
They keep me on my toes.
They keep me humble. And guessing. And beaming. And occasionally crying.

And all I can do is ask for God's grace and patience.
All I can do is fall on my knees and ask for forgiveness and guidance.

This is what I know - I'm human. Filled with error. Filled with inspiration. Filled with the desire to do my best and make every moment count.
Gifted with three children that I know God has big plans for.

All I can do is ask for grace to raise them right, despite the mistakes I make.


Unknown said...

Amen, girl. Thanks for your honesty...I'm there with you. Thankful for God's mercy on me. I need more of Him in do my kids. :)
God bless.

Lora said...

Amen is right.

And you're right, just because you "know" some parenting answers and tricks doesn't mean they always work. From 9-5 I'm a Parenting Professional. That absolutely DOES NOT mean I'm a Professional Parent!

Love to you today and every day, and thank you for this!

deborah said...

The longer I'm a parent, the more I think that being a parent is MORE about ME learning, than it is about anything I might manage to teach my children. Boy, does being a mom show me how selfish and impatient and imperfect I am!

Colleen - Mommy Always Wins said...

I'm so glad you wrote this. Thank you!

Danielle said...

I love your honesty, humility and transparency. It's so nice to know those I admire most are human too. LOVE the photo!!!

rentz said...

Great post, Beki! And so very true.

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Brittany SSP said...

Love this. Had a similar thought process after an argument with my hubby the other day, and afterwards all I could think is "Oh gosh, we still haven't figured each other out and we're starting to think about adding kids in this mix."

Amy said...

Pretty sure I'd win the silver medal. :)