Friday, May 10, 2013

When you're the one left out.

I don't know how it happens. You're cruising along and life is good and all of a sudden BAM!
You realize how lonely you are.
Your friends have moved on without you, getting together, laughing, and having fun.
You can't seem to get accepted by those warm fuzzy encouraging supportive online women's communities that seem to reach out to everyone else but you.
You're not going to the cool kid's conferences.

You blog and get no response.
You tweet and don't have followers.
You update on facebook or other social media but it seems like no one is listening.

I don't even know what category it falls into: jealousy? pain? hurt? insecurity?
All I know is it feels... lonely.
Left out. Frustrated. Lost. Unheard.

And I wonder if Jesus is saying, "Haven't I told you to not turn to the world for your emotional needs?
Haven't I told you that I'm the only One who sticks closer than a brother?
Haven't I told you that I'm the One who is always by your side?
Aren't I the One who can bring a Peace that passes all understanding?
Yes. Turn to Me, child.
Not to flawed humans. Not to conferences or blogging communities. Me.
Turn to Me. For everything, for all of your needs. Turn to Me.
I will bring you friendship. Acceptance. Comfort.
Just turn to me."

If you're reading this, know that you're not alone.
And know that turning your eyes upon Him, releasing your struggles to Him, crying your lonely tears to Him is the only way to find the Peace and acceptance you're desperately wanting.


Anonymous said...

It's me.
*lifts hand to respond to altar call*
I'm gonna need some Kleenex down here, BTW. Thanks in advance.

LeAnna said...

This is perfect. I think too often we look toward man for our answers, instead of to Christ. Social media has done some crazy things to relationships. Many many good, but also many that aren't so good. Blogging has changed a LOT the past 5 or 6 years, and I'm not so sure I like it.

Only Jesus satisfies.

Michele @ {Primp} said...

I love this--thanks for the inspiration today!

Kerrie said...

So heartfelt Beki, I have had these moments but I think it's actually an especially good reminder for the non-lonely times. <3

.....Elizabeth..... Polka Dot Skies said...

Beki, I hope your day gets better. You are a light to so many folks!
I know how you feel today. I have been down all morning. And I learned recently that "friends" don't want to see your ugly sides. Sending you a big hug!

Unknown said...

Needed to read this today! Adding a link to this post to my Saturday Snippet list to post tomorrow. Hope that's ok! Have a great weekend.

Anonymous said...

I love your blog and your jewelry. You are one of the only "genuine" bloggers that isn't in it to brag and show off.

Artsnark said...

love your photos & honesty. Sending virtual hugs

Kelley said...


kate said...

Thank you for sharing. I needed this today.

Stef said...

OH YES! YES! Its so easy, the instant - the people who want to like you for your pretty funny witty things ... but the loneliness when you wonder ... but do they really know ME?! HE DOES!

I sit in the lonely space and agree whole-heartedly with this post. And pray for your heart to feel His closeness and love. The genuine real stuff.

Shirley said...

So needed to hear this this morning as I am that girl who is lonely in a crowded room. What I need to do when feeling this way is turn to God and remember to lean on Him for strength to make it through the times of loneliness. Thank you for sharing and May God's blessing cover you this day and every day.

Theresa K. said...

Reminds me of the song, Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus.. Friends may leave you, husbands too. I know that pain, but I get lonely but when I start feeling down I just remember that He loves me more than I can imagine and he is holding me in His arms.

Sarah said...

I'm getting all teary over here. Bookmarking this one. This is beautiful, thank you for sharing!

LindaMarie said...

The timing on this is eerie. Thanks for sharing.

LindaMarie said...

The timing on this is eerie. Thanks for sharing.

Jessica said...

I needed to hear this. Thank you!

Sonya@Beyond the Screen Door said...

Beki, thank you so much for your openness and willingness to allow God to speak through you with this post. So very relevant. This ministered so much to me! Thank you!

Unknown said...

Thank you, Beki! I needed to read this today!

Simply Created by Cole said...

So beautiful! I wish I lived closer so I could come and just visit. I hope that I get to see you this year at the best Barn sale in the world! ;) I've felt that pain you mentioned often, friend. Oh, how we need HIM. He holds us in the palm of His hands.

Chad and Jody said...

I've felt this way too many times in the last few months. But, turning to God worked time and time again. Amazing how quickly I can forget, and then remember again.
Thanks for posting.

Amanda said...

I love how you wrote this... Very true!!

Tiffany said...

I read your blog regularly, but unfortunately don't take the time to comment. I actually find your blog refreshing in a way I don't get from the others who do go to the "cool kid" conferences. I think it is because of that, your blog is about you, and the lord, and the beauty of our land. I find your blogs deeply personal, and inspirational, and thought provoking. Just thought you should know :)

Ruth said...

I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE THIS. Perfect timing, as always. Thank you for being you!